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Unsettled I'm unsettled. Everyone around me is stressing out. And that's making me stress out. Weird. I'm unsettled. -0827, 27-2-10 And while I have been sheltering myself inside my emomomomomomomo shell of emomomomomomo-ness, I did not even realise what was happening around me. I feel kinda bad for them right now. But I guess this is part of why I stick it out myself. Being cryptic here, sorry. It's weird. To feel guilty for something that's not your fault. Seems like it's breakup season? Probably. Sorry guys. Meanwhile, I was contemplating, whether I should have told her, before the clock struck 12. "I don't know why, but just wanted to say, hope you had a happy St. Valentine's day" But I froze and I gave up. I left the draft, to remind myself how foolish I was. Then the clock struck 12. Plus, the island-wide alarm sounded today, at supposedly 12.00noon sharp. Guess my clocks are about 3 minutes fast. 2347, 15-2-09 Heya, what's been hanging? Haven't made a post in quite a while, no idea why, no idea why not. I just haven't really been doing much I guess. Chinese New Year is coming up soon. So is Valentine's Day. Both are, if you are still living under the rock called apathy, an equal time away from each other. I don't think I've ever experienced this phenomena before. It really is quite interesting. I'll be spending Valentine's Day at my cousin's house. Oh come now, don't look at me like that, you know what I mean. I don't feel like continuing. Yawning now. Just came back from drama welcome tea. Nice intake this year, 70+ people. Hopefully all stay. I really need my backstage people. Otherwise. I'm screwed. Haha. No seriously. I'll be dead meat, dying under the pressure of hard work. But I think I'm bummed out about V-Day. I mean, I think it's fair to say I lust for love. It's just something that's been gnawing at my mind since I was 12. Love, relationships. It's a world I want to experience, soon. Heck, 17 V-Days alone. Still better than my brother I guess. He's clocked in 19 alone. But he's had relationships before. 2 in fact. It's much easier to like a sarcastic self-demeaner than a quiet rock. Oh now, I can't believe all this talk is coming from me. Perhaps it's just the lack of creativity that I have mixed with the abundance of a wanting to have a creative outlet that's causing this phenomenon. Seriously, today I felt like bursting out into song randomly, explosively and without regard for public image of myself. Multiple times. A minute. For the whole day. I still haven't finished the song I promised 6 months ago. And already I'm sourcing for Relationship Advice. Don't take me the wrong way. RA's one way to look it. -2211, 9-2-10 |