Most agree goodbye is the hardest part.
I feel that for me, the greetings and salutations always seem to linger just out of my reach, refusing to allow me to grasp the simple concept of introductions.
But hellos and goodbyes all represent change, and that is what most people fear. The change.
So it's even worse, if I finally find the courage to say hello to a new resolution, one that removes from my life a certain special person, to move on and say goodbye.
It's double the change in that one second of transition to a new year.
I don't think it'll be that easy, I'll still want to linger.
But it's for the best, that I say hello to a life where you leave.


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Definitely a new experience.
Something so far from what I imagined.
And definitely no oppurtunities.
But all in all.
It was alright.
The main thing irritating me was the "Let's go, it's boring" comments spewing from their mouths every few minutes.
And oh boy, if only i didn't sweat so much.
And if only I wasn't so blind.
Time's up now.
The light's are out.
The music's stopped.
Dance's over.


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Eyes keep blurring but
I'm never giving up
It's going to be a while

So watch out for me.


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Straying from the focus
Falling in too deep
Tired of losing my mind
Feeling way too weak.


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It seemed like that was the best day ever.
It seemed like it would have lasted forever.
But all good things have to come to an end.
All healed wounds would start bleeding again.
And just for that one moment.
It just seemed like
The best day ever.

Kai posted at 11.04 p.m, 17-19-08


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Long long time ago, I made a post.

Today is a long long time from that time.

Since then, I've been to Australia.
Melbourne, Apollo Bay, all along the Great Ocean Road, and Adelaide, oh not to mention Phillip Island.
I've seen penguins, running over each other in a hurried way after dark, to feed their young.
I've seen bustling cities with sales at every corner, and grand entertainment centres.
I've been on a tour cruise around a small lake, waving to those on land from the safety of the vessel.
I've sampled exquisite foods fresh from the ocean, prepared in an exceptionally delightful manner.
I've visited a German suburban town.
I've had quite a bit of fun.

And after that 10 day episode,
I've got a job creating worksheets.
I've started a healthy lifestyle campaign.
I've also started a not-so-healthy computer gaming campaign.
I've realised neither of the campaigns have fallen flat on my head.
I've been quite happy with life.

I've been quite happy.
With everything.
And I'm about to get a little more happier soon.

Kai posted at 9.21 p.m, 14-12-08.


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