Well well well.

Release of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows last Saturday.

Ooo two pieces of paper flew out of my cupboard as i typed the previous sentence. Freaky. Heh.
Fun too.

Sounding extremely stupid today, because I'm happy. Today no maths olympiad, tomorrow early dismissal at 12.30.
So fun, fun, fun. Too bad now there is a server maintainence on MapleStory. Aww can't play. I bet if people saw this they'd call me a no-life person. But then, nobody really comes anymore huh? =D

Kai posted at 2.52 p.m, 25-7-07


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I finally found out the meaning of my chinese name! It means a "victory that will be known far and wide". Nice.

My brother is a person who will "rise up to victory" and my sister, a little less wonderful, is a "victorious melody".

Nice.




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"Hey, Kai?"
"Yea?"
"You're stalking again."
"I am?"
"Yes, you are."
"Dam"
"It's hard, but you promised me. Remeber?"
"Yes, I do."
"But I never looked at it. I mean, it's been so long and there's nothing there..."
"It's about as good as not stalking, isn't it?"
"You may not be looking at the real source, but you are still visiting it indirectly. It's the exact same thing, in the end, only with different views and language used."
"Shit..."
"Yea. Shit."
"So now what?"
"This new method of stalking. The indirect one. It's gonna give you more distractions instead of allowing you to focus on one single person. It has to stop. Now."
"Right..."
"I'm serious."
"I know, I know......"


So now what? I don't know, you tell me. These are all your voices speaking to me, wether you like it or not. Hear these words? These are your words.

I need some answers, but I have no questions. Even if I did, I wouldn't dare to ask anybody. I don't think I would. Not likely.

Kai posted at 10.17 p.m, 16-7-07


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Why do I still keep this thing?

Apparently it's my one of my few connections with responsibility left. The rest are, in ascending order of importance (that means the least important in my opinion is at the front) :
Being a student
Being a APL
Being a mapler
Being a guitarist
Being a family member
Being a friend

As you can see in the list forementioned (is that the right word?), I am a mapler. Found this random interest this monday. Am a level 20 warrior as of this moment.
I think Tom would mock me in retribution for the comment on his playing RO.
I care, but am not affected by it. How......contradictory.
Honestly, it is quite fun, now with all the features they added, which were absent three years ago when I last logged on.
But one thing still remains. I suck at leveling in this game.

"Let me show you why, I would die for you" - Light Up The Sky, Yellowcard, Paper Walls

This particular line in the song should apply to everybody on the world. They do have someone to die for. I think I do, I knew I did (pay attention to the past tense), but now I don't know anymore. Again. Contradictions. I hate myself for this.
Being so contradictory, I mean.

Anyone up for anything? I think I can handle it.

Kai posted at 10.40 p.m, 15-7-07


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Long time eh?
Today was stepping up.
Today was also investiture.
Today was stepping down.
Today was so many things.

But in a large world, many things to me is peanuts to the other 99.99999999999999999% of the population.

So then, who really cares? I like to ask myself that. No answer ever, though.

Wrote a song. Sucked I guess. Can't find the nice tune for it since I'm tone deaf. Even though I have the most musical talent in my nuclear family. Pfffft.

APL. Assistant Patrol Leader. That's a label now. And one I don't think I'll get sick of anytime soon. No, siree.

Kai posted at 22.47 p.m, 6-7-07


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