Second Day
Am late. Again. Dam. Anyway. Second day of school. The homework starts now, yea? Everything's starting now. Everyone's getting serious. And it's seriously not fun anymore. I guess I'm not too sure how to explain it.

And don't get me started about CCA. Secondary 3 life in a uniform group. How depressing. I wish I was more like my brother. He rarely feels guilt. That's what I need. To not feel guilt. Then going through life would be so much easier. Not no work at all. Just easier.

It's starting to get to me now. How horrible. And as I'm typing this. Oh god I feel sick. I feel like......throwing up if you will. But I can't. And I have to live with this. I'm actually guessing that I'm not really sick. It's some kind of "goddamit-I-am-going-to-get-screwed-tomorrow-because-I-didn't-do-my-homework-and-I-am-going-to-die-at-CCA" thing. Is it anxiety? Nervousness? Yea. Probably.

Screw it. I hope I fall sick tomorrow.

Kai posted at 10.39 p.m, 4-1-07


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