Deletion
Of one of my most prized possesions ever to be one my computer.

Nobody deserves a stalker.

I was heartbroken as the green bar went across the screen. But I couldn't let a single sign of sadness out. I've grown in an extremely unusual way. I can't do feel anything at the biggest of occasions. A death, parting of strong friendships, relationships, anything big. Yet I can find the smallest moments worse than anything I could ever face in this world. This intrigues me; I don't know everything about myself yet. I don't know why it's like this. Like a vital programme was removed, and without it everything is faulty. I feel so......wrong. I don't feel human at all......

My parents, and my sister, are out of the country, in Hong Kong. Almost everyone I told has asked me "Why didn't you go with them?". Simple. 1) I have been there before. 2) My current school activities do not allow me the luxury. 3) I simply don't want to go. Again, the removal of something important, to make me feel like this.

And now I want to delete everything, and start afresh. It's going to be hard, but I can try. I'm a person meant to endure. So endure this.

Kai posted at 11.24 p.m, 28-11-06


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